Scents That Remind

There are scents that serve as instant reminders.

It happens at unexpected times you walk through a room and catch a whiff of something and immediately you are reminded of your lost loved one.

Day 12 of Capture Your Grief: Share the scents that remind you of your baby.

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You might laugh, because I know I had a giggle. The scent I most closely associate with Miranda is Purell hand sanitizer.

Being a PICU family it quickly became ritual to squirt our hands with Purell every time we walked down the hall or up to her bed.

At first I hated that smell, but over the weeks it just settled in and became normal.

I never held Miranda when she was born. By the time I would get to be close to her she smelled like medicine, not that sweet baby smell that I associate with my newborns. On her final day when I held her she didn’t have her own smell at all, it had been replaced by hospital smells.

I’ve never been much of a hand sanitizing mom, but now I carry it just to smell that scent that reminds me of Miranda and our days with her.

I’ll admit, it is a strange scent to hold onto. I didn’t really choose it, it just happened and I’m not complaining. I’ve embraced these little things that help form my memories of Miranda.

Do you have a scent that you associate with a lost loved one?

 

 

**Capture Your Grief is a 31 day photo challenge created by CarlyMarie. For each day of the month during October (Pregnancy/Infant Loss Awareness) bereaved parents are encouraged to share their journey through photographs as a way to share the healing process. I am participating in this series and will resume sharing our homeschool journey, recipes, and life in general in November. Thank you for your thoughtful understanding while I share my heart this month.**