waiting…

I am waiting for this year to end.

I’ve lost my daughter and have survived(?) the first “holiday season” without her.

I’m just ready for this year to be over. I know that flipping the calendar page isn’t going to fix anything. My hurt won’t magically go away. I won’t suddenly “move past” everything.

I just need this year to be over.

I am hopeful that the coming year will be better, but I fully realize that is might not.

There is so much of this year that I pray will be redeemed in the coming one. (Joel 2:25) I don’t know if it will happen in 2012, He certainly doesn’t ever promise an instant fix, but I’m hopeful that the mend begins.